This evening I whooped and nearly shed a tear. All over both of my sons finishing 5oz, burping loudly and having a fantastic poo. In fact I celebrated those 3 things as much as I celebrated when WBA beat Port Vale in the Division 2 Play Off finals at Wembley! A good burp from my boys is often the difference between me feeling like an OK mom and the worlds worst mom!
I'm pleased that at the moment it's such a small thing that determines my perception of success. When I was struggling to become a mom, it was that that shaped my feelings about myself. I felt like a huge failure. Seriously a bloody 15 year old school kid can get pregnant and carry a child and I couldn't! After every loss I apologised to my husband- I'm sorry I have such a shit oven. Every month I would crumble and think how useless I was.
At the time, friends and family would say- it's not your fault, and deep down I knew it wasn't. But it still felt it. Fortunately I was able to gather myself together and focus on my can do's to try and counteract the overwhelming sense of being a failure.
So today I want you to be proud! For a moment lets celebrate what we can do, not what we feel we can't! We're not a country that encourages 'pride'. We tell our kids- don't show off! Well I say sod it! Let's take a moment and tell the internet what we can do and lets not apologise for it. Sometimes it's good to remember we are more that our can not's.