I've always wanted babies. Only at the right time. Which is why I spent the majority of my 20's setting an alarm on my phone to remind me to take a little tablet that would stop them coming at the wrong time. I was completely regimented with it, I had the alarm, would take my tablet, would do a little cough to make sure it wasn't hiding in my throat and then I'd drink a glass of water again. After all, my ability to produce offspring was never in doubt. How could it be when I myself was the product of failed contraception! My mom was on the pill when she had me! She blames a rogue toe nail and an operation to remove it....! My sister only had to think about a baby and she produced one. Which is why it was so so so so so so important to set that reminder and stop me having a baby at the wrong time.....
Turns out, my alarm setting skills weren't actually necessary- cos for me, it wasn't going to be that easy to have myself a little bambino! It would seem for me the getting pregnant bit was a bit easier (in the beginning anyway...) it was the staying pregnant that was the problem. But of course I didn't know this until well into my 30's because I had been fantastic at not getting pregnant in the first place! (still with me?!). Journeys are important. My journey to motherhood has been bumpy. Messy. Heart breaking. But I got there in the end. I will go into more detail in the future about some of the pit stops and how I eventually managed to carry a pregnancy through. But for today I will chuckle to myself at the sheer panic I use to have if I was even one minute over taking my little anti baby making tablet, believing I was as fertile as a Jeremy Kyle guest and my body was a first class aga oven. I'm glad I can laugh now, because I'm typing this next to my two little boys fighting sleep in their cribs.
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8/31/2016 10:01:25 pm
It is funny how we have the "teenage pregancy" message rammed down our throats so hard that we assume we only need to think about getting pregnant for it to happen. Reality is getting pregnant and staying pregnant is not that easy. What is great though is that we have the technology to be able to start to do something about it.
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Jennie
8/31/2016 10:04:10 pm
Tell me about it. It's why I'm doing this (to start anyway). I want to talk about loss. About the fight. Someone was open with me about their struggles and it made me not settle for giving up on motherhood.
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Claire
8/31/2016 10:04:07 pm
I have waited for this post all day... You have such a way with words 💚
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Jennie
8/31/2016 10:11:29 pm
xx
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Laura
8/31/2016 10:19:53 pm
You literally brought me back from the brink of tears. You hit the nail on the head with what you say and your posts have a warmth and are so genuine with what you say......I love this blog 💙💙
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Jennie
8/31/2016 10:21:14 pm
As one of my heroes you will be featured a lot. :)
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Ali
8/31/2016 10:24:28 pm
Love this blog. xx Look forward to the next instalment x
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Jennie
8/31/2016 10:26:44 pm
Thanks Ali xx
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Danielle
8/31/2016 10:33:05 pm
Genuinely love reading these and really do think it will help/comfort people in the same situation! Looking forward to the next x
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Jennie
8/31/2016 10:33:54 pm
Ah thanks Dan! :) xx
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Criddle
8/31/2016 10:37:20 pm
Loving this Jennie! 💙💙
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Jennie
8/31/2016 10:38:34 pm
Thanks Laura! Xx
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Becky
8/31/2016 11:10:47 pm
Love this Jen. I had no idea! Look forward to reading the next blogs. Xxx
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Jen
9/1/2016 12:36:42 pm
Cheers Becky! :)
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Sarah
8/31/2016 11:12:08 pm
Beautifully written ❤️
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Rose
9/1/2016 06:00:13 am
Love love love this!!!! Keep them coming Jen. They are so funny, so truthful and inspirational 💙.xx
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Gemma
9/1/2016 07:20:25 am
Brilliant read with my cuppa this morning.. (Fellow twin mommy from the miracle of Ivf) Brilliant way with words, warm and encouraging post for anyone about to start their 'journey'
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Jennie
9/1/2016 09:02:12 am
Ah thanks Gemma! And from a fellow twin Ivf mom too- makes it even more ace! X
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Steph
9/1/2016 07:23:28 am
Another brilliant instalment look forward to reading more xxx
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Jen
9/1/2016 12:36:09 pm
Cheers steflar! X
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Julia
9/1/2016 07:32:02 am
Can't wait to read the next one. I'm sure your honesty will encourage others. X
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Jen
9/1/2016 12:35:12 pm
Thanks Julia! X
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Jen
9/1/2016 12:35:34 pm
Walking class may feature one day! :P
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The Wend
9/1/2016 07:45:43 am
This is truly your calling Jen. Sharing is caring.💗
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Jen
9/1/2016 12:34:55 pm
Cheers the wend! Get sharing! X
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Emma
9/1/2016 09:51:21 pm
Loving these blogs Jen! Can't wait for the next instalment xx
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Jen
9/2/2016 04:58:00 pm
Cheers em! X
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