Reasons I love these pictures..... 1) I have minimal chins 2) Beyoncé is in the background 3) Hilarious nights out 4) Surrounded by good friends 5) I was pregnant in both pictures. Reasons I loathe these pictures..... 1) It reminds me I was pregnant. 2) It reminds me that the pregnancies didn't make it. I have had two miscarriages and an ectopic pregnancy. All three were dreadful shit hopeless times in my life. All three made my heart grow weak. All three ripped hope from my heart. I was thinking about this blog and how I wanted to give hope to people, but the truth is sometimes things don't have the ending we hope for. If that's you, all I can say is, I'm sorry. I'm really sorry. I can understand how you feel. I appreciate I am now someone you probably dislike as I've managed to get what I hoped so badly for. And it's ok to dislike me because of that. I would have disliked me just after these pictures were taken. It is shit. Absolutely completely shit. I don't know where I'm going with this. I guess I just wanted you to know I know. And I'm sorry.
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Laura
9/1/2016 09:49:11 pm
❤❤😘😘
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Laura
9/1/2016 09:49:17 pm
❤❤😘😘
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Jen
9/2/2016 04:58:09 pm
X
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Claire
9/1/2016 09:55:45 pm
💚 I'm struggling to find the words for a reply as I have no idea, but honestly beautiful words 💚
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Jen
9/2/2016 04:57:25 pm
Cheers wench! Hope you're enjoying your blog fame!
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Steph
9/1/2016 09:57:18 pm
Straight from the heart x
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Jen
9/2/2016 04:56:43 pm
Innit x
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The Wend
9/1/2016 10:08:19 pm
Can always rely on you to say what you mean and that's important.
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Jen
9/2/2016 04:56:14 pm
You knows it! x
Jen
9/2/2016 10:55:57 pm
Thanks Kaz x
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Becky
9/1/2016 10:36:20 pm
The strangest things remind me of my hopeless days 💔
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Jen
9/2/2016 04:55:50 pm
Yeah, sometimes the obvious does nothing to evoke those memories, which is a little bit rubbish cos then you're not prepared! Xx
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Holly
10/18/2016 09:25:34 am
Never a true word spoken. I have hated myself in the past for not wanting to be around my pregnant friends or friends with babies. I hated that place I was in. I felt like such a bitch for feeling sad and jealous at their happiness. Don't get me wrong I was happy and over the moon excited for them. But I was sad, angry, bitter, twisted and jealous for me and I couldn't stand myself for it.
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